When I was in school I used to love art class but when it came to my GSCE years and we Â had options the choicesÂ offeredÂ toÂ me were Music, PE , Art OR Drama.
P.E was out straight away – choosing to spend the final 2 year of my life as the most unsporting person I know in the company of a PE teacher I hated (ahem, Â Miss Dickie) oh no no no no that wasn’t going to happen. Music there was no chance I can’t hold a tune to save my life and the coordination to play a musical instrument….forget it, so that left Art or Drama, I went with Drama.Â I love DramaÂ (being somewhat of a drama queen) and enjoyed being on stage, performing in several shows extra curricular to my schoolÂ activities, where as in Art I really only ever drew when I felt like I WANTED to draw, when I really felt like I was really interested in the subject and I got to choose when that happened, so I let it slide – sometimes I wished I hadn’t.
Sometimes I wished I’d kept it up and had the skills to capture the images I take with my camera and turn them into something special with pen and paper – sometimes I wished I’d tried harder….
So last year I did.
Leaving work on my lunch oneÂ coldÂ wintery day I spotted a leaf on the ground and did what every sane person would do I picked it up and carried it around with me until I returned to the office and snapped a photo of it with camera phone – I don’t know why I just felt like it, it’s not the most spectacular image in the world but I kept it all the sameÂ I then threw the leaf away.
That photo sat on my phone for ages……
A few months later I spotted a drawing book on sale in The Works and bought it, I still had a set of nice drawing pencils at home and I had half an idea that I would draw something , I just didn’t know what – then I started looking through the photos on my phone and inspiration struck, I knew there was Â reason I’d picked that leaf up on that day, I just didn’t know what until I had my pencils in hand….
It’s not the mostÂ spectacularÂ drawing in the world, it’s not even a true likeness of the image on the left, but it’s my drawing, Â it’s the first I’d properly attempted since opting out of art class for drama when I was 14 and I was kinda happy with it.
That was over 12 months ago now. My pencils have sat in the box sinceÂ un-thoughtÂ of until today when I came across the photo of the leaf again and I thought it about time I gave them another airing. I’ve sat and pondered for a while about what I could drawÂ and after a while I realised I was wasting my time….
…30 year old me is still suffering from the affliction 14 year old me suffered and maybe it will be another 15 years before I pick up my pencils again. I can’t think what I want to draw, what I’d be able to draw so I don’t and as what I draw isn’t as good as what I’d like it to be anyway I think I’m better off staying hid behind my camera lens insteadÂ after allÂ I could never recreate this image with my hand!