{"id":30,"date":"2005-09-10T13:37:00","date_gmt":"2005-09-10T12:37:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.weirdbutinagoodway.co.uk\/blog\/2005\/09\/10\/shitty-shitty-shitty\/"},"modified":"2009-01-05T11:23:16","modified_gmt":"2009-01-05T10:23:16","slug":"shitty-shitty-shitty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.weirdbutinagoodway.co.uk\/blog\/2005\/09\/10\/shitty-shitty-shitty\/","title":{"rendered":"SHITTY SHITTY SHITTY"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The weather is most definitly reflecting my mood today&#8230;.AWFUL&#8230;It&#8217;s raining and I dont think it&#8217;s ever gonna stop.<\/p>\n<p>There is a reason for my gloom, CHRISTMAS!!<\/p>\n<p>Yes I know its months away and anyone who knows me well enough will know I usually love it, the decorations, the food, the shopping, the everything about it&#8230;BUT not this year, I&#8217;m dreading it.<\/p>\n<p>My son is going to stay with his Dad from christmas eve untill mid week, a prospect  I wasn&#8217;t looking forward to anyway BUT I could cope because I was going to see my parents, now i find out that&#8230;.My stepdad and mom are both working, My sister is going to her boyfriends families and my brother is going out with his friends. SO I&#8217;VE GOT TO SPEND CHRISTMAS ALONE. I really dont have anywhere else to go and the thought of it is making me feel ill.<br \/>I mentioned before I suffer from autophobia, but I pretty much had it under control except for the odd bout of insomnia BUT last night when I first found out that I have nowhere to go christmas and I went home to an empty house started worrying about it and had my first panic attack in 7 months!!<\/p>\n<p>I cried myself to sleep&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m 25 next week and still crying myself to sleep, How pathetic am I???<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The weather is most definitly reflecting my mood today&#8230;.AWFUL&#8230;It&#8217;s raining and I dont think it&#8217;s ever gonna stop. There is a reason for my gloom, CHRISTMAS!! Yes I know its months away and anyone who knows me well enough will know I usually love it, the decorations, the food, the shopping, the everything about it&#8230;BUT &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.weirdbutinagoodway.co.uk\/blog\/2005\/09\/10\/shitty-shitty-shitty\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">SHITTY SHITTY SHITTY<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-30","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-wbiagw"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6WGy-u","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":31,"url":"https:\/\/www.weirdbutinagoodway.co.uk\/blog\/2005\/09\/17\/its-saturday-and-its-my-birthday\/","url_meta":{"origin":30,"position":0},"title":"Its Saturday and its my BIRTHDAY!!!","date":"September 17, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"After a shitty shitty week (death threats(off my brother, nice chap) arguments, tedium and if i'm honest a few tears) Saturday has arrived, Yes the day has arrived. 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