The bestest shop in the world which will will be the coolest shop in the world when its all finished with a funky coffee shop is GOING TO SELL MY PHOTOS FOR ME!!! They will frame them and display them in the coffee shop bit, sell them and then give me the profits if everything goes to plan…

…I’ll be happier when I know it will definitly be going ahead as I know how these things go as rule, promises that are easily broken but I’m very excited by the prospect and it’s nice to know someone thinks they’re good enough to even offer!!!

Ok so I’m going to jump around and wear myself out a bit as I’ve got to be in work at 6 in the morning and if I try and sleep the way I’m feeling now I know I’ll just end up staring at the ceiling for the night…that and I’m going christmas food shopping with my ex-ex mother in law?? don’t ask..

If I dont get back on before, although I probably will pissed after work tomorrow night, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

xxxx

I’m finally getting into the christmas spirit!!!

After spending the last 3 days doing stuff with friends and for the most part behaving like a child the christmas bug has FINALLY bitten me. I’ve finished 95% of my christmas shopping (the rest will wait till next week having postponed christmas and all that) I have put a couple of decorations up (still no tree though because THAT is a waste of time this year) and I’m consuming record numbers of mince pies (will be the size of a house come January 1st).

Things are all good, nobody to argue with, nothing to worry about and I’ve decided that the best way to deal with the “real” christmas day (not the pretend one I’m having New Years Day) will be to lock myself in with a couple of bottles of Baileys (well it is christmas) a couple of books and a few DVD’s and return to civilisation Boxing Day!!

So 3 days to go and I’m refusing to stress anymore about it!!

[edit]…..Just because I’m proud of myself I’ve added this bit for the world to see…..I MADE GY BLUSH he actually went red and all coy on me…However I bet I could embarass him a whole lot more if I started talking about my 15th birthday party…mentioning no names *wink wink* cough cough Becky Shimmans!!…HA
Just remembered even more details about that night…I was the only person in the whole school to hold a birthday party that the police were called to I state AGAIN for the record…”It wasn’t my fault!!!”

Twas 4 days before christmas and all through my house….

….IS BLOODY GLITTER, STICKY TAPE AND RIBBON!!!!

Never let a six year old help wrap the presents, I will be spending my evening once he’s in bed re-wrapping 90% of what we’ve done but it was fun!!

I’ve had a hectic couple of days, was off work monday/tuesday and my manager having al the leadership skills of a rattle snake managed to muck up the rota so I ended up having today off too, now isn’t that a shame!

Spent Monday and Tuesday as planned with Cat and James respectivily, and, had a mighty nice time. Monday me and Miss Lister wandered the streets of Wolverhampton doing a lot less shopping than you might think, but falling IN LOVE with a BEAUTIFUL jacket in Passage (the mad 70’s shop in town) which once christmas is out the way I may very well go back to purchase and finding a christmas card that was as big as Catherine is!!

Tuesday was again spent in Wolverhampton but this time with Mr Clarke and lil J. After consuming copious amounts of Vanila Lattes again and destroying some toy shops….Jordan kicking a toy into a lego/playmobile display (ooops) and me setting (or at least trying to set) off all the singing teddies….and me singing random songs while trailing around shops it was time for dinner, Having Jordan in tow I wanted to avoid the high street with the grease in a box fast food outlets but was unsure where to go so James had the BRILLIANT idea of Pizza Hut…I never remember there is a Pizza Hut in town as I usually go to the one on Bentley Bridge!! So we all went consumed MUCH Pizza and garlic bread, spilt pop on the table (and James) and rubbed ice-cream into Jordans face!! Another really plesant day!

Today with a rather impromtu day off I was unsure what I was going to do with myself especially as Jordan was up half the night coughing and spluttering as the cold he’s had for what seems like most the winter has finally settled onto his chest, but the answer was on hand in the form of Al who had the brainwave of meeting me in town to swop christmas pressies so we didn’t have to do it in work!! So it was off into Wolverhampton AGAIN for a day of coffee, mince pies and PRESSIES!!! WOOO!! Took Jordan with me again and had ANOTHER lovely day.

ALTHOUGH I am totally backwards and instead of finishing my christmas shopping Monday when there was just me and Catherine, I dragged Jordan with me today!! However, It wasn’t THAT bad. He was really REALLY well behaved so father christmas will definitly be visiting this year….and next beens as he’s coming to our house New Years Day too (I’ve postponed my christmas by a week so I can celebrate with Jordan when he’s back from his Dads!!)

Now I’m back at my mothers relaxing while Jordan creates holy hell in the kitchen with my mom cooking biscuits, sausage rolls and jam tarts more flour on the floor/ceiling/work surface than in the bowl but he’s enjoying himself….think he’ll need a bath when we get home!

..I’m so tired,

Just finished my 7th day in work in a row, looking forward to a day off tomorrow!! Well a day not having to go into the shop anyway as I can hardly call it a day off now the kids have broken up for christmas and Jordan is home fron school!

Planning on going shopping tomorrow with the gorgeous Catherine and lunch with the delightful James on Tuesday, so a pleasing couple of days is to be had…And I definitly need them, went out for the works christmas party last night.

Lets just say it wasn’t what I would have normally done on a saturday night…a meal in the Imperial (which naturally I didn’t mind) BUT then it was out for drinks to *cringes and says this very quickly in the hope that people dont really realise where I was* “Yates!!” oh my god it was terrible, women aged 40+ dancing around poles trying to pull BOYS half their age, men that had the misled belief that they were SEX GODS, slilmey IDIOTS at the bar who thought me saying FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE really meant PLEASE HARASS ME SOME MORE I’M ENJOYING IT REALLY and my co-workers who were actually ENJOYING themselves in there!!!

I left them as soon as I could (but not before getting our supervisor drunk, he’s a muslim and has never drank before!!!HA) and went off to the Royal London to see who I could see….luckily for me as I’d left everyone I was out with in Yates, I saw quite a few people I knew and mangaed to drink quite a few more Jack Daniels and Cokes before getting bored again and heading to the taxi rank to share a cab with a random pink haired boy who I dropped off on my way home.

Now as I’d been drinking JD since I’d left work and started on doubles while in Yates (I needed it) I should have been SO SO drunk, but rather unfortunatley I was still stone cold sober when I got home. So, as promised, I rang Mr Clarke to tell him I was home ok and ended up talking politics with him at 2 in the morning, an unusual end to a pretty mashed up night!!

Oh and I was searching the net for pressies and found this…..

http://www.iwantoneofthose.com/search.do?productCode=PANBUT

…I think everyone should have one!!!

….I have just recieved a Christmas card off one of my aunts, who I see fairly regularly.

So please tell me why when I opened my card it is addressed to me and my EX??

Now i’ve only been split up with him since JULY, so whats that only 5 months behind the times!!! Its a bloody good job that he did such a fantastic job of destroying my confidence/trust in him when we did spilt up, Could you have imagined the scene if I’d have still been hung up on him and feeling the way I have been just lately to have opened that card this morning…

…Nice to know my family pays so much attention…

…Oh just in case there is anything else you may not of noticed about me….I left school 9 years ago I finished college 6 1/2 years ago, Gave birth to Jordan 6years ago and have moved house and jobs several times since. I do not still wear my hair in pigtails (unless the mood takes me) and it has been legal for me to drink for quite a while now!!

I think that covers everything….MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

I have done too much complaining by far this last week…I’m such a big baby when it comes to whinging so let me just say now, NO I’m not in much of a better mood and things aren’t a lot better than they were but I definitly feel in a better state of mind than I did about it (amazing what a GOOD nights sleep can do for you) I am going to try and get on with it and not complain half as much as I have been.

SO here is a very public THANK YOU to JAMES for listening to me rant over the last couple of days and for being his typical laid back self and having the answers to everything! To Gy who basically told me to make the best of what I have, because once I believe things can’t get any worse they invariably will and to the little girl I bumped into in Starbucks yesterday, It amazing how much a total stranger can cheer you up. The innocence of a three year old standing on a chair totally unashamedly singing christmas carols top of her voice to her baby sister really put a smile on my face, Its amazing the mood I was in that something so simple lifted my spirits for the rest of the day!

SO THANK YOU ALL!!!! I love you all loads, but mostly James as it was he that put the idea of Vanila Lattes back into my head!!!

MWAH!!!!

I am fed up, completely and utterly fed up and disillusioned with life in general at the moment. I’m sick and tired of fighting my way through a bottomless pit of daily battles, the battle through the “office” politics at work, “family “politics” at home and more recently “playground” politics at school, the whole you can’t say this/do that because it will upset …… (Insert random name here), don’t stand there because it will put …… (again random name) nose out of joint, has finally got to me. IS THERE NOWHERE IN THE PLANET YOU CAN TRULY RELAX, BE YOURSELF AND (god forbid) ENJOY YOURSELF!!! So I give up and I’m not going to play anymore!!

What’s brought this on you may ask, well it seems that no matter what I do I’m constantly WRONG, I’ve tried being the person who is constantly smiling, playing along and making life easier by shutting up and putting up, I’ve played the game in work when everyone is pissed off and I’ve been the one to sort it all out, the one at home who gets called upon in a crisis to put things right, run round like an idiot and solve everyone’s problems, The one who has yet to complete her own Christmas shopping as the day I’d set aside to do it I got roped into helping my sister with finishing hers and I DID IT WITHOUT COMPLAINING!!

But not anymore it seems whatever I do I’m criticized for EXAMPLE AT WORK:
My ATV (Average Transaction Value for those who are vaguely interested) is lower than it is usually £20 down an what I could be achieving and my manager has said that this isn’t good enough…regardless of the fact that my other 3 stats are off the scale and in the 3 quarters I’ve been working there I have had the highest stats CONSISTENTLY in store and have won “star” of the region ALL 3 TIMES, Regardless that in the last 3 weeks I have put £300 MORE insurance sale through the till than ANY OTHER member of staff in the building!! My managers’ idea of encouraging me to work harder and inspire me to want to achieve is to FORGET all this and only condemn me for not obtaining that elusive £20. Oh and in an inspired piece of managerial work he has given me the 6 AM start Christmas eve regardless of the fact this will be the last chance I’m going to get to see my son until after the holidays, and why do I have to do this?? BECAUSE in the laws of office politics I can’t complain about this because and I quote “I won’t be behaving like a team player!” Dont you just love his motivational techniques!!

AT HOME: I have put myself out the last few weeks to make life easier for my mom as she’s been having huge rows with my step dad (which hopefully have been sorted now) and on top of which she’s not been very well. I’ve helped around the house, I’ve done most of her Christmas shopping for her, even going as far as buying her Meat hamper as she hasn’t had time to get to the butchers, on top of this I’ve been helping my sister out organizing her Christmas, and looking after my son. It was and is me that comes running every time something needed to be done. Last night I reminded my sister (for the 1000th time in 3 weeks) That I needed a cheque from her to pay for some things SHE had ordered for HER boyfriend off my Ebay account as I was getting email from the seller basically telling me I was out of order for not paying, AND get this I WAS OUT OF ORDER for asking her, apparently I was being a “selfish bitch” for asking her for at as she hadn’t got time to think about it now, she’d just got on from work and was in a rush to get to her boyfriends, AND GET THIS, my mom told me to “Stop rocking the boat Stephenie” “Why couldn’t you have waited till the weekend to speak to her” and “You being the eldest should have more consideration” HELLO…did I miss something….she order she doesn’t pay I’m in the wrong with the seller, my sister AND my parents???

I GIVE UP!!!