What in gods name is the world coming to when at 10:30am a psychotic 40 something woman is running amock WITH A KNIFE outside my local corner shop!??!

I dont live in a city centre or in a run down over populated block of flats in the suburbs, I live in a relativly quiet estate on the Wolverhampton/Walsall border right on the edge of the Staffordshire greenbelt! So women with knives are a rarity and quite a shock to the system when you’ve only nipped out to fetch a bottle of milk and some Frosties that Jordan insisted he wanted for breakfast (regardless to the fact he’d alreday eaten best part of a loaf of bread having toast and jam).

So with the screeching banshee stabbing the phone box and threating anything that moved within 12 feet of her what was there to do other than bundle the blonde kid into the shop (he wanted to stand and watch?? WHAT is it with 6 year old courage?? Scared of the knife weilding maniac?? NO he wanted to stay and see what she was doing!!) Calm down the 3 teenage girls she’d just scared the life out of and call the police!

YES, I called the police NOT the shop owner who’s customers were being scared away, not the girls who she’d directly threatened not the man sitting on the car park and not even any of the residents watching it unfold from behind there net curtains.

And who said community spirit was dead!!

I hope to god that if anything were to happen to me, any of my friends or family someone more proactive than the people who were standing around or turning a blind eye today are about. I made it totally obvious to the woman that I was calling the police standing in the doorway to the shop on my mobile and looking directly at her seemed to make the point, and she disappeared into one of the flats across the road (the address of which I passed onto the operator too.).

Maybe if someone else had the presence of mind to report the erratic, threatening and potentially dangerous behaviour before I had got there she”d have disappeared sooner, Then maybe I wouldn’t now be having to try to explain to my son why the strange lady was “playing with a knife” in the street? Maybe the three young ladies who rushed into the shops close to tears wouldn’t now be paranoid to walk home on their own,maybe if the police had actually responded to my call instead of a “well is she off the streets now?? We’ll send someone around to “look into it”” other people would be more inclined to stop an dhelp/take action in these situations and maybe, just maybe, It’d send a message to the drunk/drugged up idiots out there that NO we wont tolerate this kind of behaviour on our doorsteps!!

Saturday at V and it rained and rained and rained. AND THEN rained some more…

It started as we were waiting to get in and continued throughout the day varying in its intesity but never quite stopping!

HOWEVER that didn’t stop us enjoying the day immensly!! Seeing some marvellous performances and elbowing our way through the crowds to get a better view!

Managed to see full sets by Imogen Heap and Rufus Wainright and varying songs from other sets by other artists including Paul Weller, Faithless, The Feeling and Razorlight!! It was marvellous!!

Luckily for us but not so lucky for him, my sisters boyfried, who was there, but not with us, mananged to drink himself into a stupor and although there on a weekend pass needed collecting on the Saturday night so we managed to get a lift home when Emma came to pick him up. So no need to travel for hours on public transport in damp clothing in the rain!

So thank you Danny for making an idiot of yourself…and 4 words…I TOLD YOU SO!!

The blonde kid has gone on holiday, the big kid has gone out to the pub, My sister is out being a dirty girl in a flat she’s “flat sitting” with her boyfriend.

My step dad has just announced to my bemused mother that he wants some “bikini shots” of her(not as bad as it sounds), and the dog my parents are “dog sitting” has just dragged his bedding into the middle of the living room and started humping it, which is only made all the more disturbing by the fact that he keeps getting more “zealous” if you try taking his “blanky” away so he can fight against you and”hump” it at the same time….needless to say we’ve just left him to it now (whatever floats his boat and all that).

My “real life” friends have all disappeared to regions unknown (new houses, newly married or new babies take precident over socialising), and my online friends are either nowhere to be seen or helping me pimp my blog!

Spent last week ill, tired, pissed off or looking at crazy art work (see above). This week, Tuesday I’m dining with Al, Wednesday I’m off to the Clarkes, Thursday I shall be avoiding my “pretend best friend” who I have managed to avoid for months and now wants to meet up (pretend best friend meaning I gave up and wish she’d do the same), Friday one of the Clarkes (the best one) is heading to mine. Saturady is V (woo) and Sunday is recovery.

So why with such a fun filled week planned am I sitting here wondering what I should do with myself??

Why is telling somebody how you really feel have to be so damn hard???

I seem to spend my entire time biting my lip to keep the peace and make life easier for everyone around me while making myself feel like shit, and ultimately winding myself up over something that should not and does not need to be a big issue…

…And even better, WHEN I do finally feel the need to say something I end up really upsetting the person I’m talking to because “its out of character” for me to complain about “the something” that’s been bothering me!!

Everyone seems to forget that I’m human too, and just because I haven’t vocalised the issue it most probably means… I’M JUST NOT TELLING YOU HOW I REALLY FEEL!!!

JUST BECAUSE I’M QUITE LAID BACK AND RELATIVELY EASY GOING MOST THE TIME DOES NOT MEAN I DON’T CARE AND DOES NOT MEAN THINGS DON’T BOTHER ME IT USUALLY MEANS I’M CONSIDERING YOUR FEELINGS FIRST AT THE EXPENSE OF MYSELF SO HAVE SOME FUCKING CONSIDERATION!!!

.. The sun is out again every one seems to be in a brilliant mood and I dont know what I’ve done recently BUT everything just keeps getting better!

Jordan is performing FANTASTICALLY in school, I finally found it within myself to stick to my guns with his father and stand up for myself so I’m no longer getting any serious shit of him…oh he still tries but I now stand up for myself. I’m perfectly happy with the way my personal life is going, ridiculously happy and contented and now today I go to work and find out that there is a posibility that within the next 3 weeks I will be promoted!!

It is a “if” at the moment, My supervisor is under going training to move to another store as Assistant Manager, if he fails that OR turns down the position at the end of it he will stay in out store and I wont be able to move up HOWEVER even this isn’t a losing situation for me as work have taken the decision to train me anyway..and not only at a supervisory level but I’m doing the same training as our current supervisor so it will leave me in an excellent position for promotion next time there is an opening at my store or even at another branch locally…

…I’d like the promotion now of course, more money, more responsiblity etc but hell I’m happy just to be considered proficient enough at my job to be even put forward for the training so all in a all a good day of good news for me…

….HURRAH!!

….bloody marvelous!!!

Have spent the few days in the company of good friends and family, with good food and fine wine. The sun is out and as of and hour ago I have another new hair cut!

I’ve spoilt myself with a new floaty skirt and the blonde kids school report (which I received last night) is ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC, never has there been a prouder parent then me, although I’m sure we all think like that!

Spent all this morning watching five, six and seven year olds running around with bean bags on their heads and balls balanced on spoons at the schools annual sports day which was a very pleasant end to a week that started with me as an hormonal wreck, Biting everyones heads off and sulking profusely (God damn being a female, but at least I have something to blame my tantrums on!)

Oh well whats next?? Only a few more weeks untill the kids summer holidays, although I wont see Jordan for most of it as he’ll be away with his father and then his grandparents, again….I swear that kid travels more than an air hostess at times!! And other than that it just work work work spaced out with just a little play for me!

I keep forgetting to blog, I’m useless i know but it seems that at the moment I have far too many “other” things to be doing than sitting in front of the computer…Watching football matches, going for food with friends, working, spending time with family, drinking LOTS, SEEING THE FOO FIGHTERS TWICE IN ONE WEEK!!!

OH YES after all my tantrums last year about not getting tickets to see them at the NEC in Birmingham I’m seeing them twice this week, HURRAH!!

First gig was Wednesday at the Victoria Apollo Theatre acoustically. They were amazing and although we had seats up in the gods the sound was FANTASTIC also we could see everything, i.e. NO idiots standing on chairs and waving banners directly in front of us. It was brilliant I cant even think what my favourite song was IT WAS ALL AMAZING!!

THEN tomorrow its back down to London to Hyde Park!! Foo Fighters, Queens Of The Stoneage, Angels and Airwaves, Juliette and the Licks…. the list goes on, I’m looking forward to them all except Juilette Lewis..I saw her perform last year at Reading and by god did she suck, the only upside is she couldn’t possibly have gotten any worse since then….could she???

Never mind the whole day is goijng to ROCK from start to finish, spending the day with some great people (well I would say that wouldn’t I being than a little on the biased side) travelling to one of mmy favorite cities to watch one on my favourite bands perform AGAIN, it cant really get any better! Well, it could if I won the lottery but then I suppose It’d help if I bought a ticket first!!