As I seem to have progressed from a general dislike of my job into a full on hatred of the building, the work, the people, the mess, THE MANAGER and everything else to do with it, i’m looking for a new job.

I was promoted twice last year but due to bad management I’m in the same position now as I was 12months ago….

I was offered a promotion due to my supervisor being promoted and moving to another branch, so I was offered his position, the next day he decided not to take his promotion as he wanted to stay on in our store….bye bye Stephs promotion..

THEN…He really did leave for a job with another company, so the job was immediately offered to me again, I accepted, Then my manager handed in his notice to join the police force and the Area Manager put a freeze on all staff changes…bye bye Stephs promotion!

The new manageress started and offered me the job again, gave me all the extra responsibility, the hours, the supervisory role, Left me to answer an alarm call out at 4A.M. to a ram raid at the shop and then work a 12 hour shift to sort the mess out, sits in the office leaving me to deal with the staff at the busiest time of the year….and 2 months later I’m still waiting for the contract and the pay rise.

I’ve had enough, I’ve told them I’m not doing it any more. Not until I get paid accordingly and maybe thanked for the work I’d already done at a reduced rate…..still nothing.

THEN, during the week between Christmas and New Year Jordan was ill, not seriously, but enough for James to need to call me out of work to deal with it. As i got off the phone she asked me who it was and I said, “James, Jordan is ill” before i got any further she screamed “oh, and I suppose now you want to go home, What about MY lunch break!!” and this was on the shop floor in front of other staff and customers. Talk about unprofessional and demeaning….she didn’t even stop to ask what was wrong with him…could have been hit by a bus for all she knew. I walked out after telling her children get ill and it wasn’t my fault, we’d all worked hard were tired and stressed but I really wouldn’t be asking to go home unless it was urgent!

When I returned to work I had a lecture about 100% attendance and the impact me having time off has on the company. About the need for commitment and dedication to my position and the example I should be setting to the other staff!!

It was the straw that broke the camels back, I want out .
I need to find a new job….preferably something with career prospects and training??

I’ve searched the web and spent most of Christmas in and out of the job centre and I’m going insane having to smile and play nice in the position I’m in now, I have a variety of experiences and I just want a challenge!!

*rant over* for now 😉

I haven’t posted for months, I’ve have so much really cool stuff that I could blog about too…ghost hunts and gigs, visits to London, visits both to and from friends. Christmas shopping, idiots, new managers and stories form work HOWEVER included in my usual frantic lifestyle of working parenting and partying SOME idiot in the powers that be decided it was a good idea to propose the closure of the blonde kid’s school!! Allegedly, due to falling roll in the area where I live.

Understandable this has dominated so much of my time blogging was just a distant thought and slipped into the usual routine of work and home came committee meetings, LEA investigations, OFSTED reports, arguments with council officials, arguments with parents, splashed with a liberal dose of despondency, remorse and in fighting but above all else camaraderie and the good old British fighting spirit!!

The saying “United we stand, divided we fall” as never been spoken with so much passion…well maybe it has but at the moment its the philosophy of all the staff and parents and you try convincing us anyone has ever fought harder for something they want and you’d be hard pressed to find someone who believes you!!

The injustice of it all is that the report they based their findings on, and so putting forward the proposal to close is so full of inaccuracies and bias that if they had looked at the true figures I’m sure a different conclusion would have been drawn. Although I suppose it doesn’t help matters that it’s a Labour Government who have published the proposal and Labour councillors sit on the boards of governors at two of the four school on our estate and a member of the committee who actually drew up the proposal is married to the head of the school which is SERIOUSLY under performing (and the figures are in the public domain that prove it),,, and Danesmore isn’t on of them!

So now the fight is one to get the powers that be to listen to us and review their own inaccuracy, that’s if we can find a councilor who will admit they are wrong, a long shot I know but a one we are pursuing mercilessly!!

In the mean time I am doing all I can to help the fight, running the school website with the help of JAmes, HERE, administrating the school forum HERE, attending rallies and definitely biting off more than I can chew by offering to sit in the schools PTA and generally help out in any way that I can EEEK, talk about the blind leading the blind…Wish me luck!!!

That title just about sums up my day perfectly, It seems like its lasted a life time but it was exactly 24 hours ago since I was last sitting in front of this computer screen waiting for a phone call and checking my mail!

I am so tired I’m not sure how I’m keeping my eyes open!! Last night was a nightmare I spent the night giving away an excersize bike and vigoursly sorting out BAGS of clothes, shoes and handbags (all of which I have excess of) to take to the charity shop! I finally collapsed into bed a little after 11 and settled down to watch some BAD late night telly and try to sleep.

About 12 my phone rang and as I answered, in a really bizarre case of bad timing, everything went off…it took me a minute to figure out what had happened it was dark…and I mean dark I couldn’t understand how my tv swithing it self off could effectivly send me blind, luckily for me it hadn’t, All the street lights had gone out too…we were in the middle of yet another power cut!

It lasted about hour…funnily enough just about the length of my phone call…and then the telly switched itself back on at a stupidly loud volume and scared me witless! Unfortunatly the return in power meant that all the burgular alarms up and down my street reset themselves and sounded similtaniously…including those in all the shops 100 yards from my bedroom window.

I reset my alarm clock..set my alarm on my mobile should we have anothr outage while I was sleeping and settled down to sleep…2 hours later I was STILL trying to sleep eventually about 3 I dozed off, only to wake up convinced my phone alarm has gone off and I’d switched it off and fallen to sleep again at 5:30 and my alarm wasn’t even set to sound till 7!!!

Dragged my ass out of bed (and I mean dragged it was so hard leaving my pillow behind) and sent the blonde kid to breakfast club and set off to work!

Was a pretty uninteresting day untill about 2 o’clock when a little old lady collapsed outside the shop, I helped as best I could and spent the best part of 45 mins phoning for/waiting for ambulances/supporting ambulance responder unit and holding hands with a very scared old lady untill a “proper” ambulance arrived to take her to hospital…finally got back into store 10 minutes before the end of my shift with a cracking headache and a wise cracking assistant manager who called me a “busy body” for wanting to help!

I’m glad I helped but what scared me was the number of totally uninterested individuals who walked straight past without a second glance before I arrived to help…

…People suck at helping strangers!!

Tonight I am a sleepy tired stressed out girl…

…45 minutes ago I returned home from my aerobics class after yet another stressful day at work and a weekend of little sleep after celebrating my birthday..mark 1…tea and toast in bed, meals with my sister and our respective partners. Mark 2 is this weekend Friday night curry with some brilliant people and then a night of ghost hunting at Dudley castle Saturday…

…but thats then, and untill I can let my hair down then I hav eto get through another stressful week in the “office”….anyone want to give me a job??… so right now I’m going to bed to sleep!!

After just speaking to somebody I haven’t spoken to all summer I have been informed that apparently i haven’t blogged enough about what I’ve been up to so they can keep up to date with with me even if we dont speak…

So heres a recap for John (and anyone else who cares…) in the last 2 months I have been to both V and Reading festivals and a couple of gigs. I’ve been out with friends and stayed home alone. The blonde kid has been away and returned again on 3 seperate occasions with different people each time. I’ve slept, cooked, played and worked, I’ve sat and passed my exams, I’ve been to friends weddings and no funerals I’ve been happy and angry but never sad and I think thats about it!!

I should blog more then when people ask me what I’ve been up to can point tham in the direction of this site instead of trying to remember!!

….haven’t got fucking clue!!

I have just returned to work after a 2 week break and now remember why I’m so much happier at home than when at work. The points of view of some of my work colleagues leaves a lot to be desired….

One girl thinks carrying a gun/knife is acceptable if your job puts you in danger, like a drug dealer for example…My reponse…If you deal drugs then you deserve EVERYTHING you got coming to you, AND since when is drug dealing considered work??? She then stood and argued (worryingly with some conviction) that they (the drug dealers) work long hours and it isn’t really the dealers that are at fault but the users???

GET A FUCKING CLUE SWEETHEART….Drug dealing is not only a past time for some of the lowest scum on the planet BUT also illegal.

Quick money it may be but at what price?? And as for it being long hours….MY HEART BLEEDS FOR EVERYLIFE THEY HELP DESTROY WHILE “WORKING” THE HOURS THEY DO!!

I seriously think management training or no management training…Its time I found a new job!!!

Check me out….

In the space of 12 months not only have I done a complete 180degree turn with my feelings on relationships – meaning I thought every single one was doomed to failure and even the suckers that had been duped into believing they were in what they considered to be a happy, stable relationship were just in denial and fooling nobody but themselves, To the point that when one of my closet male friends set a date for his wedding (which is tomorow BTW) I laughed in his face!!

Which I now feel very guitly about as its less than 24hours away and you haven’t backed out yet like I predicted. SORRY.

To feeling sorry for those that have no one!

Why suddenly do I feel this way?? Because trust me even being in a relationship myself for the last 6 months didn’t do much to change my opinion and I was still a little on the pessimistic side of the track.

WELL I’ve spent the last couple of weeks behaving like a spoilt brat. I’ve thrown tantrums and argued and said some horrible things to and about people that I didn’t really mean, well I did at the time of course but once I’d calmed down I realised most of it was harsh and uncalled for, although I had my reasons.

BUT no matter how badly I behaved, how upset and unreasonable I became,I still had love and support of the people that REALLY mattered..FUCK THAT the PERSON the really mattered. When I apologised for behaving like an idiot (which I did, even I can admit I’m wrong out of order sometimes) I was told to shut up, there was no need to apologise and that he understood…but maybe I should have said something sooner!!

No shouting, no screaming no retribution, no childish – you upset me so I’m going to treat you like shit for the rest of the day/week and make you feel REALLY bad for it. – No running away from the issue/s just proper grown up conversation

I realise how lucky I am, THIS must be what its like being in a relationship with an adult… THIS is what all the loved up soppy idiots were talking about when they said went through all the cliches like “there’s plenty more fish in the sea” And ” wait you’ll see there’ll be somone out there for you!” when I was berating them for being all loved up and not coming out to drown my sorrows with me and really wanting to smack them in the face for being so cliched!!

So now tommorow is going to be a lovely day and instead of sitting sneering at the “suckers throwing thier lives away” I’m going to be happy and contented knowing that one of my bestest friends has found the girl he wants to spend the rest of his life with and wish them the best of luck with the future…

….and be the one feeling smug and telling all the attendees without a + one that there’s “Plenty more fish in the sea”