Check me out….

In the space of 12 months not only have I done a complete 180degree turn with my feelings on relationships – meaning I thought every single one was doomed to failure and even the suckers that had been duped into believing they were in what they considered to be a happy, stable relationship were just in denial and fooling nobody but themselves, To the point that when one of my closet male friends set a date for his wedding (which is tomorow BTW) I laughed in his face!!

Which I now feel very guitly about as its less than 24hours away and you haven’t backed out yet like I predicted. SORRY.

To feeling sorry for those that have no one!

Why suddenly do I feel this way?? Because trust me even being in a relationship myself for the last 6 months didn’t do much to change my opinion and I was still a little on the pessimistic side of the track.

WELL I’ve spent the last couple of weeks behaving like a spoilt brat. I’ve thrown tantrums and argued and said some horrible things to and about people that I didn’t really mean, well I did at the time of course but once I’d calmed down I realised most of it was harsh and uncalled for, although I had my reasons.

BUT no matter how badly I behaved, how upset and unreasonable I became,I still had love and support of the people that REALLY mattered..FUCK THAT the PERSON the really mattered. When I apologised for behaving like an idiot (which I did, even I can admit I’m wrong out of order sometimes) I was told to shut up, there was no need to apologise and that he understood…but maybe I should have said something sooner!!

No shouting, no screaming no retribution, no childish – you upset me so I’m going to treat you like shit for the rest of the day/week and make you feel REALLY bad for it. – No running away from the issue/s just proper grown up conversation

I realise how lucky I am, THIS must be what its like being in a relationship with an adult… THIS is what all the loved up soppy idiots were talking about when they said went through all the cliches like “there’s plenty more fish in the sea” And ” wait you’ll see there’ll be somone out there for you!” when I was berating them for being all loved up and not coming out to drown my sorrows with me and really wanting to smack them in the face for being so cliched!!

So now tommorow is going to be a lovely day and instead of sitting sneering at the “suckers throwing thier lives away” I’m going to be happy and contented knowing that one of my bestest friends has found the girl he wants to spend the rest of his life with and wish them the best of luck with the future…

….and be the one feeling smug and telling all the attendees without a + one that there’s “Plenty more fish in the sea”