…Through Jan 19th and into the 20th relativily unscathed.

I haven’t had a falling piece of masonry hit me on the head, tumbled under a bus, been decapitated by a runaway shopping trolley or trampled to by a herd of wild rampaging elephants so all in all I’m in one piece, MAINLY because with my past history with this date I took extra precautions NOT to walk too close to the road/past any construction sites..in fact I didn’t go ANYWHERE outside of work ALL day, So physically I never put myself anywhere that I could come to any harm, That does not mean however that I escaped totally from the unforseen events January 19th usually throws up at me.

What happened left me not physically but most definitly mentally drained!!

The “ex” turned up at my shop, yes the dumb ass mother fucking socially inept two timing degenerate guitar playing gimp piece of shit, actually had the audacity to turn up in my work under the guise of “seeing how I was doing” to ask me to do something that he had NO RIGHT IN ASKING me to do…AND to make matters worse he’d completely forgotten what yesterday was!!

So once I’d gotten of the shock of what he was asking of me I casually inquired how his new girlfriend was, who he yet again denied seeing (hello STUPID you’ve been seen together I’VE seen you together) and then kicked the fucker out with the oh so eloquant phrase ” Fuck off you two timing piece of shit how stupid do you think I am!!!” and continued with my work as if nothing had happened untill 17:30 when I headed straight to the pub and downed a double Jack Daniels!!

I was angry with him for EVERYTHING, I was angry with myself for wasting my anger on him and even angrier with myself for actually considering complying with what he was asking! Once I’d calmed down I realised that to comply would be just stupid and even better I realised that I am actually completely over him…

…I’ve been joking for a long time that it was his lose, however I wasn’t really sure how I’d react if/when I ever saw him again BUT I didn’t feel sick at the thought of seeing him I’ve managed to speak to him without ending up upset once he’d walked away AND all I really felt was pity…pity that he still feels he has lie to me, pity that he felt like he had to come and ask me what he did, and pity because lets face it he lost out on me and I’m pretty damn fine even if i do say so myself!! (check THAT ego out!!) So no longer am I worried about running in to him when out and about because I KNOW I’m not bothered anymore, I may still verbally abuse him on here as I would anyone who abused my trust and lied to me but I now quite honestly can say I’m DEFINILTY over him, its only taken me 6 months to be sure but HURRAH for me!!