Check me out….

In the space of 12 months not only have I done a complete 180degree turn with my feelings on relationships – meaning I thought every single one was doomed to failure and even the suckers that had been duped into believing they were in what they considered to be a happy, stable relationship were just in denial and fooling nobody but themselves, To the point that when one of my closet male friends set a date for his wedding (which is tomorow BTW) I laughed in his face!!

Which I now feel very guitly about as its less than 24hours away and you haven’t backed out yet like I predicted. SORRY.

To feeling sorry for those that have no one!

Why suddenly do I feel this way?? Because trust me even being in a relationship myself for the last 6 months didn’t do much to change my opinion and I was still a little on the pessimistic side of the track.

WELL I’ve spent the last couple of weeks behaving like a spoilt brat. I’ve thrown tantrums and argued and said some horrible things to and about people that I didn’t really mean, well I did at the time of course but once I’d calmed down I realised most of it was harsh and uncalled for, although I had my reasons.

BUT no matter how badly I behaved, how upset and unreasonable I became,I still had love and support of the people that REALLY mattered..FUCK THAT the PERSON the really mattered. When I apologised for behaving like an idiot (which I did, even I can admit I’m wrong out of order sometimes) I was told to shut up, there was no need to apologise and that he understood…but maybe I should have said something sooner!!

No shouting, no screaming no retribution, no childish – you upset me so I’m going to treat you like shit for the rest of the day/week and make you feel REALLY bad for it. – No running away from the issue/s just proper grown up conversation

I realise how lucky I am, THIS must be what its like being in a relationship with an adult… THIS is what all the loved up soppy idiots were talking about when they said went through all the cliches like “there’s plenty more fish in the sea” And ” wait you’ll see there’ll be somone out there for you!” when I was berating them for being all loved up and not coming out to drown my sorrows with me and really wanting to smack them in the face for being so cliched!!

So now tommorow is going to be a lovely day and instead of sitting sneering at the “suckers throwing thier lives away” I’m going to be happy and contented knowing that one of my bestest friends has found the girl he wants to spend the rest of his life with and wish them the best of luck with the future…

….and be the one feeling smug and telling all the attendees without a + one that there’s “Plenty more fish in the sea”

What in gods name is the world coming to when at 10:30am a psychotic 40 something woman is running amock WITH A KNIFE outside my local corner shop!??!

I dont live in a city centre or in a run down over populated block of flats in the suburbs, I live in a relativly quiet estate on the Wolverhampton/Walsall border right on the edge of the Staffordshire greenbelt! So women with knives are a rarity and quite a shock to the system when you’ve only nipped out to fetch a bottle of milk and some Frosties that Jordan insisted he wanted for breakfast (regardless to the fact he’d alreday eaten best part of a loaf of bread having toast and jam).

So with the screeching banshee stabbing the phone box and threating anything that moved within 12 feet of her what was there to do other than bundle the blonde kid into the shop (he wanted to stand and watch?? WHAT is it with 6 year old courage?? Scared of the knife weilding maniac?? NO he wanted to stay and see what she was doing!!) Calm down the 3 teenage girls she’d just scared the life out of and call the police!

YES, I called the police NOT the shop owner who’s customers were being scared away, not the girls who she’d directly threatened not the man sitting on the car park and not even any of the residents watching it unfold from behind there net curtains.

And who said community spirit was dead!!

I hope to god that if anything were to happen to me, any of my friends or family someone more proactive than the people who were standing around or turning a blind eye today are about. I made it totally obvious to the woman that I was calling the police standing in the doorway to the shop on my mobile and looking directly at her seemed to make the point, and she disappeared into one of the flats across the road (the address of which I passed onto the operator too.).

Maybe if someone else had the presence of mind to report the erratic, threatening and potentially dangerous behaviour before I had got there she”d have disappeared sooner, Then maybe I wouldn’t now be having to try to explain to my son why the strange lady was “playing with a knife” in the street? Maybe the three young ladies who rushed into the shops close to tears wouldn’t now be paranoid to walk home on their own,maybe if the police had actually responded to my call instead of a “well is she off the streets now?? We’ll send someone around to “look into it”" other people would be more inclined to stop an dhelp/take action in these situations and maybe, just maybe, It’d send a message to the drunk/drugged up idiots out there that NO we wont tolerate this kind of behaviour on our doorsteps!!

Saturday at V and it rained and rained and rained. AND THEN rained some more…

It started as we were waiting to get in and continued throughout the day varying in its intesity but never quite stopping!

HOWEVER that didn’t stop us enjoying the day immensly!! Seeing some marvellous performances and elbowing our way through the crowds to get a better view!

Managed to see full sets by Imogen Heap and Rufus Wainright and varying songs from other sets by other artists including Paul Weller, Faithless, The Feeling and Razorlight!! It was marvellous!!

Luckily for us but not so lucky for him, my sisters boyfried, who was there, but not with us, mananged to drink himself into a stupor and although there on a weekend pass needed collecting on the Saturday night so we managed to get a lift home when Emma came to pick him up. So no need to travel for hours on public transport in damp clothing in the rain!

So thank you Danny for making an idiot of yourself…and 4 words…I TOLD YOU SO!!