…What are your other 2 wishes??

I have done far far too much in the last week to write out all of it fully, so in brief, I have slept little, drank lots, played football, rushed around, worked some, antagonised people at work, visited the bestest damn people in the world (you reading this James???),had some visitors, lost a job application form (I’m the only person who can put something down in their OWN house and lose it!!) stopped a shop lifter at my Moms work and found out just how hard falling onto the floor at speed from chair height in my lounge can be! Thats it I think…oh and I bought a new bluetooth dongle thingy and a funky looking mouse and had a new dvd drive fitted to my puter oh and stole Al’s flash Drive to fill with stuff for him!!!

Will post more later but still very busy right now…got to get Jordan from school right now, then I’m having visitors later tonight after I been food shopping (how domesticated am I??), football tomorrow night, visitors thursday night and working and school stuff in between next time I complain that I have nothing to do and am BORED remind me its actually better to do nothing sometimes!!

This last weekend has been BRILLIANT, It was again spent in front of the TV and in the company of random friends at my house, Friday I spent wrapped in front of the tv again continuing with Season 4. Saturday night Al came over and between the two of us finished a bottle of Jack Daniels which resulted in me dancing round my living room to Salt and Peppers Push It and DJ Casper Cha Cha Slide, I make no excuses and you can laugh at me I dont care I enjoyed myself I laughed so much my sides hurt I have however completly knackered my thigh muscles up just goes to show how unfit I am!!

Sunday afternoon I headed into Wolvehampton to meet James, who then accompanied me back to mine, assisited in putting my computer in some sort of order and ate random pie, We then spent an absolute ridiculous amount of time talking and playing games…24 Top Trumps (which even though its down to luck I SUCK AT) and BUZZ on the PS2. I LOVE THAT GAME, For the few of you left who haven’t discovered it yet Its a quiz in the form of a gameshow presented by an animation of Jason Donavan and all the questions are music based which I find really frustrating as I find myself shouting at the screen…I KNEW IT..when I’ve quite blatently gotten the question wrong LOL!! And yes James, before I get the predictable comment ( ), I know YOU scored highest BUT round for round who won the most… oh that will be me…well maybe not that much more than you BUT when I did win I did wipe the floor with you!

I had an incredibly good time again (Thank you James) and finally went to bed at something stupid o’clock Monday morning!!

Woke up not much later, not feeling the brightest. Jordan was being dropped off from his dads so a lie in was not an option!! I dragged myself out of bed, got dressed and attacked the coffee pot with relish, Couldn’t quite put my finger on what was wrong with me as it didn’t feel like anything in particular…I didn’t feel like I usually do when over tired, it wasn’t like I had headache or felt sick, but somethng was wrong I quit smoking WEEKS ago but it felt like I’d been smoking all night and my nose wasn’t bloked but it felt difficult to breathe.

James said he knew something was wrong as I stopped talking for a WHOLE five minutes LOL I spent the day feeling sorry for myself trying to keep warm!

Now its Tuesday and the whole thing has developed into a head cold so that explains it, I now have the streaming eyes runny nose and the feeling of someone sitting on my chest to accompany the feelings of general lethargy, Jordan has being doing his usual tornado impression around the house again and has manged to fall down the stairs resulting in a lovely set of multi coloured bruises along his arms and on the side of his head so I have him off school for the day to make sure he’s ok as he did hit his head on the laminate flooring in the hall. I’d like to say he’s learnt his lesson and slowed down but like his mother he never learns, So he is currently creating havoc around the coffee table spreading glitter everywhere (again), he has his art set spread across the floor, his gameboy in one hand a glass of milk in the other and is switching between playing his playstation and watching CBBC I’m hoping he’ll amuse himself for a while longer as I just dont have the energy to deal with him today I’m begining to think I should never have quit smoking I’m sure I never caught this many colds while my lungs wer full of tar!!

…Through Jan 19th and into the 20th relativily unscathed.

I haven’t had a falling piece of masonry hit me on the head, tumbled under a bus, been decapitated by a runaway shopping trolley or trampled to by a herd of wild rampaging elephants so all in all I’m in one piece, MAINLY because with my past history with this date I took extra precautions NOT to walk too close to the road/past any construction sites..in fact I didn’t go ANYWHERE outside of work ALL day, So physically I never put myself anywhere that I could come to any harm, That does not mean however that I escaped totally from the unforseen events January 19th usually throws up at me.

What happened left me not physically but most definitly mentally drained!!

The “ex” turned up at my shop, yes the dumb ass mother fucking socially inept two timing degenerate guitar playing gimp piece of shit, actually had the audacity to turn up in my work under the guise of “seeing how I was doing” to ask me to do something that he had NO RIGHT IN ASKING me to do…AND to make matters worse he’d completely forgotten what yesterday was!!

So once I’d gotten of the shock of what he was asking of me I casually inquired how his new girlfriend was, who he yet again denied seeing (hello STUPID you’ve been seen together I’VE seen you together) and then kicked the fucker out with the oh so eloquant phrase ” Fuck off you two timing piece of shit how stupid do you think I am!!!” and continued with my work as if nothing had happened untill 17:30 when I headed straight to the pub and downed a double Jack Daniels!!

I was angry with him for EVERYTHING, I was angry with myself for wasting my anger on him and even angrier with myself for actually considering complying with what he was asking! Once I’d calmed down I realised that to comply would be just stupid and even better I realised that I am actually completely over him…

…I’ve been joking for a long time that it was his lose, however I wasn’t really sure how I’d react if/when I ever saw him again BUT I didn’t feel sick at the thought of seeing him I’ve managed to speak to him without ending up upset once he’d walked away AND all I really felt was pity…pity that he still feels he has lie to me, pity that he felt like he had to come and ask me what he did, and pity because lets face it he lost out on me and I’m pretty damn fine even if i do say so myself!! (check THAT ego out!!) So no longer am I worried about running in to him when out and about because I KNOW I’m not bothered anymore, I may still verbally abuse him on here as I would anyone who abused my trust and lied to me but I now quite honestly can say I’m DEFINILTY over him, its only taken me 6 months to be sure but HURRAH for me!!